May 18, 2018

Currently in My Office

It's May 2018 and it's crazy how life has changed since the last time I checked this blog. I'm currently in my office after solat jumat (a usual activity for moslem around the world), and I'm reading my old posts and suddenly want to write again (although i'm not so sure if I'm gonna do it again soon after this).

Life has changed a lot. Obviously, because now I'm married with the woman I love. I still remembered how confused I was back then, back to the time when I literally didn't have any clue about whom will I get married to. And the answer came in November 14, 2016. Our parents introduced us (they were friends back in college). We're officially became husband and wife in November 26, 2017. And this is me and my wife.

(a valentines card I made her last February, just for fun)

And we're about to have our first baby (Alhamdulillah).

I actually want to share wonderful things like this in social media where everyone is able to see. But at the same time I don't really wanna show what actually happens in my life. I'd prefer to keep it personal and let my family and my closest (or daily) friends to know what actually happens with us. So again I thank this blog for being my personal media (accessible but not publicly known) to share these good stuff.

Enjoy life people, because the more grateful we are, the more happy life we get. Once again, Alhamdulillah.

September 21, 2016

Cool Thing I Found While Jogging

I was jogging on a treadmill this morning when I suddenly watched a conversation in one of my favorite series: How I Met Your Mother. The episode in which Ted and Victoria decided to reunite. Victoria left her almost-husband Klaus before the wedding and surprisingly Klaus did the same thing. Thus, Ted asked Klaus what's wrong with Victoria that he left her? And here's the conversation:

KLAUS: Victoria is wunderbar, but she is not my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz. She is my Beinaheleidenschaftsgegenstand you know? It means “the thing that is almost the thing that you want but is not quite.” That is Victoria to me.
TED: How do you know she’s not Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz? I mean, maybe as the years go by, she’ll get Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz-ier.
KLAUS: Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz is not something that develops over time. It is something that happens instantaneously. It courses through you like the water of a river after a storm, filling you and emptying you all at once. You feel it throughout your body, in your hands, in your heart, in your stomach, in your skin. Have you ever felt this way about someone?
TED: Yeah, I think so.
KLAUS: If you have to think about it, you have not felt it.
TED: And you’re absolutely sure you’ll find that someday?
KLAUS: Of course. Everyone does eventually. You just don’t know when or where.

And I found a cool picture from this website

What a rare kind of thinking, which I also consider might be true.

July 10, 2016

Lesson Learned: Be Humble (and a not-so-important announcement)

There were times where I had a great intention to do something good, to make changes, to be beneficial for my surroundings, without any personal interest. And turned out, I got lots of things I wasn't even expecting at the beginning such as: experience, achievement, recognition, reputation, appreciation, and the list goes on. It was one of the best moment of my life and I was proud.

Proud. I realized now that "proud" is a dangerous word. If I may confess, being proud is enjoyable. I love the fact the people respected me for the things I had done. 

I opened a new chapter of life as an employee. I still had a great intention to do something good, to make changes, and to be beneficial for my surroundings. The only difference was this time I was doing it with some personal interest. I wanted people to know I have a great quality. I wanted to be under the spotlight, at the center of attention. Wanting something like that isn't fully bad though, it pushes yourself to give your best in everything. But maybe I was over-wanting it, and that's where I needed to be stopped.

Long story short, without any luxury to choose, I was placed at this hidden temple. Being inside can be interpreted as "not being under the spotlight, not at the center of attention". Although I've tried my best, the hidden temple still can't be randomly seen. So I can't be seen either. It stressed me out.

After months (almost a year I guess) of contemplation and self introspection, and inspiring discussion with lots of great people, I finally realized that Allah was showing me a way to keep me right on track. If I wasn't placed at the hidden temple, I might have become an arrogant person which it can't be good.

They said life is an endless roller coaster ride and I do agree now. I was at the point where I was so confident facing life after achieving successes. I changed to be a bit self centered and believe it or not it affected my life a lot. I always knew that Allah will always give what's best for me including placing me in the hidden temple. But knowing that theory didn't instantly help me escape from the stress I had. It took almost a year of struggling with my own pride, to kill my own feelings, and to earn all the positivities back, until I was able to accept my condition.

Now that I've (hopefully) passed all the hard times, I can be more grateful to be inside my hidden temple. It made me learn to be okay not always being under the spotlight, at the center of attention. Luckily, the lesson inside this wonderful place made myself to be more humble. I'll keep learning and doing my best. Like I said earlier, life is an endless roller coaster ride, it goes down sometimes, but it will go up again eventually.

Anyway as an announcement (if there are still someone to be announced: the reader of this blog which I doubt would be that many lol), I'm getting more active in soundcloud, making some original songs. For anyone who cares enough to listen may click this link:  enjoy!


(And thanks to my friend BS for editing all the above)